Feelings of Inadequacy

I love it when God allows me to stumble upon encouragement that I need just at that moment in time. Last night, I found a blog that totally inspired me. I wanted to share this post with you in hopes that it might uplift you today too.

It’s called Glitzen Girl. I know the name sounds real girly, but I don’t think you will be disappointed to read this post about trust.

Trust is a key player in beginning to feel comfortable enough to confess. In my last post we discussed confessing our sins one to another and how that brings about a place of healing and freedom from bondage to the sin that can overtake us.

Trusting God with our hearts and our messed up places is also difficult but a very needed place to go. Our Heavenly Father is an incredible God that so lavishly pours out His grace upon us. He loves us even when we don’t deserve it. Trusting Him with the truth in our lives is the first place to start.

1 John 1:5-7
“This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all. 6 So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth. 7 But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin.”

I can remember having flashbacks to an event in my younger life that I wasn’t proud of. It was a dark moment. For some strange reason, I had convinced myself that God couldn’t see it – I know… bizarre, but true. When I finally trusted God to bring it to the table and asked for His healing hand to encompass that event…WOW…a 5 ton bolder was lifted from my shoulders! God is amazing like that.

That is the freedom that I have found in visiting those places that the sun doesn’t shine and allowing the SON to SHINE on it so that Satan can no longer have a hold and ownership of it. Finding the person to confess these places to is important part of the process too.

This writer from Glitzen Girl blog wrote this…
“So many people say as they are going through a hard time that someday they will look back and see how the pieces fall together. But I think a big part of trust is walking ahead in faith and being ok with never knowing. Never understanding. I think trust comes down to walking a path simply because He has asked us to.”

This is a place that I am parked in right now which brings me to another confession which I now realize that many people walk in this place as well.

INADEQUACY

Most of my life I felt like I never was smart enough to succeed or accomplish anything of any worth. I always felt like there were others that could do it better or be chosen to have their project presented in the science fair, not mine.

I wasn’t the brightest kid on the block when it came to academics growing up. In fact, several months before I graduated from high school I realized my GPA was not high enough to probably even get into the community college in my town. Getting into a private college was going to be my route and I probably got admitted because we knew one of the past presidents.

I was the girl who studied 24/7 in college and still barely made her grades above passing. I can remember blaming God that I missed out on the line with BRAINS when coming out of heaven. It was just such a struggle to stay above water academically.

Then somewhere between graduating from college and beginning graduate school – I had a FIRE LIT UNDER MY TAIL. I became passionate about the fact that I was not made from junk and God could do all things through me that He wanted me to accomplish. I got admitted into grad school by the grace of God and every semester made Dean’s list till I graduated. I had found my niche.

But more importantly, I proved to myself that I was not trash and could learn to do many things that I felt incompetent to do.

There are many things that come to mind that I have learned to overcome my feelings of inadequacies with like…Being a Godly wife, Raising daughters, growing a full-fledged garden with flowers and vegetables, building a house, understanding investment strategies and spreadsheets, learning to Rollerblade, and even learning to cook a fancy meal.

It seems like this ugly monster of inadequacy wants to rear its head quite often even though I think I have conquered it. However, I have learned that I can overcome these feelings and buckle down and begin to work at understanding those things that seem over my head. The computer technology age has contributed greatly to this. It has been my friend. I may take longer than some but in the end – I am not a dingbat! *smile*

Inadequacy is focusing on who I was instead of who I have become in Christ.

Ephesians 3:20 says “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.”

So if you are feeling this same inadequacy thing today and this is a sin that you struggle with then be encouraged with the above scripture. God is the author and perfector of our faith and His mighty power is at work within us to accomplish things that we may not understand or even see the possibility of right now.

Of course, you know me…God allowed this video to drop in my lap rather quickly this morning and I knew that I wanted to share it with you. It put a smile on my face because I could totally relate to this song. More importantly, this is story of how the song was written. Click here to listen to the story of Building 429 tell about the song “Listen to the Sound.”

Let Him show you new things that He is desiring for you to accomplish for Him. Step out of that comfort zone and do the impossible.

Bless you all that read this today!

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