Affirming my Trust in Him

“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him. even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.” – Job 13:15

Whew! There is never a dull moment around here!

This weekend, I had the absolute pleasure of resting and reading. I needed this more than I realized. To be honest, I don’t remember the last time I allowed myself the grace to…just…rest. My Mama and Daddy took good care of me while my girls were gone to Alabama with their cousins.

Today, things moved back into full swing. My girls arrived home so excited to be back at their own house and sleeping in their own beds. Squeals and giggles of all 9 grand daughter’s filled the inside of our home. (yep, you read that right – we have a thing for girls in our family!) Laughter and stories erupted over dinner at Ga’s house (what they call my Mom.) and we all cuddled up watching the Olympics to end our day.

This was a good ending to today, because earlier the enemy tried to pull a fast one…and I am so glad that this morning I armed myself with this devotional from “Jesus Calling”!

“When things seem to be going all wrong, stop and affirm your trust in Me. Calmly bring these matters to Me, and leave them in My capable hands. Then, simply do the next thing. Stay in touch with Me through thankful, trusting prayers, resting in My sovereign control. Rejoice in Me – exult in the God of your salvation! As you trust in Me, I make your feet like the feet of a deer. I enable you to walk and make progress upon your high places of trouble, suffering or responsibility.”

These are the points that I took away from this reading:
* Affirming my trust in the One that is more capable than I.
* Trusting that He can equip me with the provision that I need as my day erupts.
* Sending up praises that say, “I trust you!”
* Then…go to the next thing.

I did this, as I looked at the 2nd air-conditioning man to come out to my house today to repair my AC unit that had made my bedroom extremely warm…like serious, south Georgia heat, unbearable.

I felt overwhelmed again. Then, I sat down and had a little talk telling God that I trusted Him to give me wisdom because I knew this was not something I needed to worry Kevin with. God was going to have to provide not only the means, but the wisdom to walk through this (seeming like) catastrophe.

In reality, I had to realize that I had a house that had another ac unit where we could sleep that night. This whole situation was doable on so many levels. My natural response was to freak out. That would not have glorified God nor solved anything.

Twenty minutes later, the extremely nice repair man told me that my estimate had changed and it was now a lot lower than originally expected due to the parts still covered by the warranty and that they would do everything they could to see that it was corrected in the next day or so.

Out loud, in my kitchen, I said…“THANK YOU JESUS!”

At the same time, this older air conditioning repair man, whom I have known since we built our house, hugged me and told me that he was praying for us and believing that God would heal Kevin. This is when I became a puddle of tears.

Last night, I went back to something I read on Sunday out of another book by Sarah Young.

“My Power flows most freely into weak ones aware of their need for Me. Faltering steps of dependence are not lock of faith; they are links to My Presence.
Dear Jesus,
My journey is indeed one of faltering steps. Today I feel as if it’s a challenge just to take the next step. I find it all too easy to be aware of my neediness. If I didn’t know You were with me, I would despair. I confess that I sometimes get discouraged about my ongoing weaknesses. I know that dependence on You brings spiritual blessings, yet at times I feel trapped by my limitations.
Beloved, awareness of your need for me creates a strong connection to My Presence. My Power flows into you continually: it gives you strength to take the next faltering step, strength to resist discouragement and despair, strength to know Me in intimate dependence. Only My Power can provide such strength, enabling you to live abundantly in the midst of your limitations. Your day today perseverance in dependence on Me, is every bit as supernatural as an outright miracle.
Because you are My beloved child, I choose to bless you. However, I bless you in ways that are unique to your needs and My design for you. Your difficulties do not signify lack of faith or lack of blessing. They are means to help you stay on the path I have chosen for you. Though the way before you may be steep and rocky, it is nonetheless the path of Life. It is where you encounter My luminous Presence – radiating Peace that transcends your limitations.”

I hope this encourages you no matter what is on your plate or even what you are facing right now.

Seeking the Presence of Christ is where we will gain our strength and where we can learn to see Him in every detail of our lives. When we stop looking for His Presence, we crumble.

I don’t want to crumble. I want to be filled with His strength – so that I can transcend my limitations…and believe me – I have some. And that is ok.

Kevin comes home today! (Tuesday) The girls and I are so excited! We might even blow up some of our own balloons! For the next 2 weeks, we are going take it easy, love on each other, and might even cuddle and watch some Olympics.

Please be in prayer for these requests:
* Kevin and Thomas’ safety coming home today.
* the next 4-5 days are harder on Kevin with his white blood cell count being lower. He is just fatigued easily. He is getting shots this round to increase the regeneration of those cell counts faster. Pray for no side effects to the medicine.
* Pray for clarity as we set up appointments to receive Kevin’s one time a week chemo treatment at home.
* Pray for our time with our family to be peaceful.
* The best praise of all…Kevin has learned to give himself his blood thinner shots! This is a HUGE deal! God has given him the strength and the endurance to do this in the last week. ONE BIG MAJOR HURDLE DOWN!

Love you friends! Thank you so much for your words of encouragement and prayers! God continues to show up and show out! We serve an amazing God!

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  1. Wow Amy thank you for sharing such encouraging words!! I SO needed to hear this! My stuff seems SO small but we do tend to get consumed in our own stuff sometimes forgetting someone out there has it much worse but no matter what we must stay connected to our life line…JESUS!!! Praying for you and your sweet family and I love your transparency and just how real you are because it lets people like me know I’m not alone no matter how different our struggles!! Praise God for his many blessings!!
    Heather Barfield

  2. It is beautiful watching you cling to Jesus through this, my sweet friend. Keep holding tight. Enjoiy your time with family. Breathe in the normalcy of those treasured moments, sitting around watching the Olympics. So glad that God has offered you a time of resting. So glad that you chose to use it.



  3. Precious Amy,
    It was so great seeing you at Chick-fil-A! So glad Kevin is home! You guys are in our thoughts and prayers. This post was such an amazing blessing! Hope to see you on the 23rd!

    Love and blessings,

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